diam

Diam..
Sunyi..
Tak bergerak..
Mati..

segenap hasrat telah terpendam.. mencari kedamaiannya sendiri..
bergelut menggapai asa yang tertinggal..
tak lagi bermimpi.. hanya berjalan menyusuri relung-relung yang tersisa..
tenggelam dalam kepadatan hari dan tetap mencari setetes kebahagiaan yang lain..

jangan kau pedulikan lagi..
ia hanya seonggok raga yang berjuang untuk hidupnya hari ini..

Miss your existence

I miss your existence..
Maybe if you are still here..everything is not the same..
Do I need to go?
Do I need to leave all the memories here?
Could you ease all my worries?
It's about a soul that still 'overshocked'
It's about a hectic day..
It's about the unspoken feeling..

Oh Gosh.. I need to find another homy sanctuary before March or April..
At least this body will not be exhausted.. even the soul still remain the same..

Hi mom who is in heaven..
I miss you a lot!!!!

If my heart was a home

You're the sky that I fell through
And I remember the view
Whenever I'm holding you
The sun hung from a string
Looking down on the world as it warms over everything
Chills run down my spine
As our fingers entwine
And your sighs harmonize with mine
Unmistakably
I can still feel your heart beat fast when you dance with me
We got older and I should've known (Do you feel alive?)
That I'd feel colder when I walk alone (Oh, but you'll survive)
So I may as well ditch my dismay
Bombs away, bombs away

Circle me and the needle moves gracefully
Back and forth
If my heart was a compass you'd be north
Risk it all cause I'll catch you when you fall
Wherever you go
If my heart was a house you'd be home

It makes me smile because you said it best
I would clearly feel blessed if the sun rose up from the west
Flower balm perfume, all my clothes smell like you
Cause your favorite shade is navy blue
I walk slowly when I'm on my own (Do you feel alive?)
Yeah, but frankly I still feel alone (Oh, but you'll survive)
So I may as well ditch my dismay
Bombs away, bombs away

Circle me and the needle moves gracefully
Back and forth
If my heart was a compass you'd be north
Risk it all cause I'll catch you when you fall
Wherever you go
If my heart was a house you'd be home

If my heart was a house you'd be home

Unconditionally

These will never leave..
These will stay the same..
No matter what'll happen next..
I still keep these.. deep down..

Even I can't give you the rainbow, but at least I won't give u the tears..
Even I can't make you laugh, but at least I can make u smile..
I can't promise to made up your days..but at least I can shine for u.
and I'm always on your back.. anytime..anywhere..unconditional..that's my promises :)

Cos I love you unconditionally..

Am I stupid?

Again..
They called me stupid!!
They called me naive!!
They told me that time is running out!!
Time is never be our friend!!
Oooh.. I forgot those!!
Then, if you remind me, should I be so much worried?
I don't even give a damn!!

I've drown..
But I'm not attached!
They are trying to attache.. but I'm not!!
I'm free as a bird..

Hati

Karena hati memiliki otaknya sendiri...
Jika ia harus berjalan sesuai dengan keinginan sang otak, maka untuk kesekian ratus kalinya, hati akan memerah... mengeluarkan lukanya sendiri..

Ingin!!!

Ingin rasanya memecahkan isi kepalamu dengan botol ini!
Agar aku tahu apa isinya!!
Agar aku tak lagi bertanya-tanya!!

Can we?

Can we talk?
Can you smile for me?
Can u?

Did you miss our story?
Did you miss me?
I've tried so many times.. 
And those were still nothing..

What do you want from me?
Speak up your mind, and it will be granted!!

Am I belong here?

People said you can share all on your mind "here"..
It is said that "here" is the coziest place in the world..
It is said that I'm belong "here"..
It's been almost 30 years..
And for the first time...
I'm not belong "here"..

I miss the story telling..
I miss the sharing..
I miss those smile..
I miss those laugh..
Actually, I miss the old you..
I realized that everything is not the same..
You left me, even you are still "here"..

I took so many excuse to go..
Just for not seeing your face..
Avoiding the awkward moments..
Avoiding the silence..
Avoiding any disputation..

I wish I have another place to be my comfort zone..
I wish I can stay there any longer..
I wish I don't need another cold beers to make me fall asleep..
I wish I can let those go out easily..

Still another 5 months to go..

I'm not belong "here"!!!

Never give up

I was in the middle of "something" last time.. then out of nowhere I found this picture..

Oooh.. okay.. what it is about? Did you try to tell me something, universe?

Did universe still working on us? It seems, yes.. I can feel it.

Honey and The Bee

Don't remind me that some days I'm the windshieldAnd other days I'm just a lucky bugAs cold iron rails leave old mossy trailsThrough the countryside

The crow and the bean fieldAre my best friends, but boy I need a hug'Cause my heart stops without youThere's something about you that makes me feel alive

If the green left the grass on the other sideI would make like a tree and leaveBut if I reached for your hand, would your eyes get wide?Who knew the other side could be so green?

Don't remind me, I'm a chickadee in love with the skyBut that's clearly not a lot to crow about'Cause when the stars silhouette meI'm scared they'll forget me and flicker out

I taste honey but I haven't seen the hiveYeah, I didn't look, I didn't even tryBut still my heart stops without you'Cause there's something about you that makes me feel alive

If the green left the grass on the other sideI would make like a tree and leaveBut if I reached for your hand, would your eyes get wide?Who knew the other side could be so green?

We are honey and the bee

Backyard of butterflies surrounded meAnd I fell in love with you, like bees to honeySo let's up and leave the weeping to the willow treeAnd pour our tears in the sea

I swear there's a lot of vegetables out there that crop up for airAnd yet I never thought we were two peas in a pod'Til you suddenly bloomed, I knewThat I'd always love you, oh, I'll always love you too

If the green left the grass on the other sideI would make like a tree and leaveBut if I reached for your hand, would your eyes get wide?Who knew the other side could be so green?

If the green left the grass on the other sideI would make like a tree and leaveBut if I reached for your hand, would your eyes get wide?Who knew the other side could be so green?

And if I reached for your hand for the rest of my life(Who knew the other side could be so green?)

Lagi keracunan lagu ini *OWL CITY :))

Won't

I won't stop.. Unless I get my life back..
It's not pretending.. Even some of them, yes..
I dig my own graveyard, for make me realize that I won't fall down..
For heaven sake..I'll be allrite.. At least for my own behaviour..
No one will notice..
Let's drown on my own..

Hey my right hand, I take u one tonite (again).. Accompany me on the dream of tuesday..

The things

These are the things that I want most today and tomorrow :

1. I just want to sleep without any help of those cold beers
2. Gain another weight or at least dont lost another kilos

May I take all those back?

Jiwa - Raga

Tubuhnya menolak..
Raganya bergejolak..
Walaupun ia belum jua lanjut usia..
Entah berapa banyak yang ia hisap..
Tak terhitung yang ia cerna..
Tetapi itupun tak membuatnya jera..
Ia masih saja memenuhi hasratnya..
Walaupun ia sadar pada akhirnya nanti semua akan menggerogotinya perlahan..

Raganya masih utuh..
Tak jua tercela..
Tapi ia tahu, bahwa tubuhnya telah lelah..
Selelah pikiran-pikirannya yang membuatnya kerap tak tertidur..

Ia sadar, bahwa ia harus berhenti pada titik nadir ini..
Tapi iapun masih tak berdaya..
Tak berkuasa atas dirinya lagi..
Ia kehilangan kontrol..
Ia kerap lepas kendali..

Dia, dirinya.. Membeku untuk sesaat..
Tak berdaya..

Aku

Aku tergoda..
Aku terpesona..
Aku terbius..
Aku sungguh tak dapat beranjak darimu..
Hijaumu menggoyahkan pijakanku..
Sekecap dahaga..
Sejenak sukacita..


*tarik aku..
Terlarut terlalu dalam..
Tak dpt menampikkanmu lagi malam ini..
I take u 1 tonite..

Run

RUN - Leona Lewis

 

 

I'll sing it one last time for you

Then we really have to go

You've been the only thing that's right

In all I've done

And I can barely look at you

But every single time I do

I know we'll make it anywhere

Away from here

Light up, light up

As if you have a choice

Even if you cannot hear my voice

I'll be right beside you, dear

 

Louder, louder

And we'll run for our lives

I can hardly speak, I understand

Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes

Makes it so hard not to cry

And as we say our long goodbyes

I nearly do

Light up, light up

As if you have a choice

Even if you cannot hear my voice

I'll be right beside you, dear

Louder, louder

And we'll run for our lives

I can hardly speak, I understand

Why you can't raise your voice to say

Light up, light up

As if you have a choice

Even if you cannot hear my voice

I'll be right beside you, dear

Louder, louder

And we'll run for our lives

I can hardly speak, I understand

Why you can't raise your voice to say